Sooner or later, a point in your life comes along when you finally sit still for a moment to stop and ask yourself what you’ve accomplished, reevaluate who you are and wonder, “what am I doing all this for?” For years we’ve gone through life in an effort of learning what it’s all about, learning how to get things, asking questions, memorizing facts, learning how to make things, achieving goals, fulfilling expectations, conceptualizing who we are based upon what we’ve done and where we’ve been.
I speak from experience, for it was circa 10 years ago that my life came to a screeching halt. Something rattled my cage internally as I started thinking about my parents’ divorce, how they split up, how I’d grown up feeling very alone esp because I am very sensitive and intuitive and that didn’t translate very well in socializing with other children my age who were busy beating each other over the head with sticks while I asked God about my origin and purpose of what this experience of life is about. I felt I didn’t belong here. I felt that my life growing up would have been better if I’d had a father in my life. I felt that I really missed my sister who died at birth as a result of my father’s violent nature …
At this point in my life of course I know that the ego played its role at that time to give me all the reasons for why “I am not enough” (several sources explain this phenomenon: the Bible, A Course In Miracles, The Way of the Peaceful Warrior, The Power of Now, …). Being brought to one’s knees is sometimes the essential experience required to bring us to the realization of the truth. And then you have true inner peace, you are truly free, attachments are unnecessary because the energy we seek is not derived from without but from within! While you cannot possess or control energy, peace, et al, you can be vigilant to live a life of awareness and love as opposed to a life in your head which equates to fantasy and a rude awakening.
Remember that words are as miniscule of a subset of what life is as the atoms that comprise all matter/energy around us. As soon as we start pontificating about life, we’ve lost our connection with it! Perhaps Gangaji will put the message even more eloquently … (NOTE: The video below will only play in HTML 5 compliant browsers e.g. Safari 5, Firefox 3.6, Chrome, …)
In the end, you do need grounding in love, other than that, you don’t need teachers, classes or rituals. The key to revealing your true inner being is to simply let go, stop trying, stop labeling, never mind all your learning, simply be still and listen …
I have learned so much from God That I can no longer call myself a Christian, a Hindu, a Muslim, a Buddhist, a Jew. The Truth has shared so much of Itself with me That I can no longer call myself a man, a woman, an angel, or even a pure soul. Love has befriended Hafiz so completely. It has turned to ash and freed me Of every concept and image my mind has ever known.
خواجه شمسالدین محمد حافظ شیرازی
>~Hafez –14th Century (..translated by Shahriar Shahriari)